3.3.2010

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
-Neil Gaiman

When you're used to something. Whether it be a person, or someTHING, after a while it can become a sort of... addiction. &not everything, but it's not surprising that when you're used to something daily, and you have to be forced to go without it until ... who knows when ... it's fucked up. When you love something or love someone, and it is taken away from you, or you have to let it go, it's fucked up. Annoying as fuck, because more times than not it's not what you WANT to do... & i don't know about anyone else, but i like doing what i want to do. . . Sometimes, you have to do what you need to do though, i guess. (?!)

'When Words Fail, Music Speaks.'

I'm so glad i have that tattooed on me, that quote still means so much to me. <3.>

post.script. "If it makes you feel better, go ahead and make me feel small. I know what you're up to bby, build that wall. You think you've seen it all and life has no surprises until you call out my name and in return all you get is silence."_MollyCool