3.25.o9 pt.2

"to appreciate all the good, sometimes you gotta fall. . ."

yeah, and smart ol' Bianca tripped and fell in love all over again. oh JOY. 

muHahaHa. gnite.

3.25.o9

It's been a while. . .I don't know why I started blogging again, because I never fail to get too lazy to type what I want to say, because I always have so much that I want to say. 

Recently, i've found myself saying more than often that Life Is Happening. . . It's happening with or without me, I can either get on board and do something, or sit around as time passes me by, so that's where i'm at now.

"Life is a grindstone. Whether it grinds us down or polishes us up depends on us." -Thomas L. Holdcroft.

I just wrote a whole bunch of stuff. . . and deleted it all. There's something about talking to the internet world that boggles my mind. Ha. All this damn technology: blogs, twitter, facebook, myspace, AIM, MSN etc. . . i'm way too available to the world, and for some reason I used to feel like I was missing out if I didn't have a way of communicating with everyone at all times, but every day i become less and less enthused with it all. 

Woke up to an AIM from my diary that made me smile, and it touched my 'liddo heart.' 

I've had this new mind frame that has made me distant to people because I kinda just like I was no longer needed in their life, and I accepted and respected that, BUT my diary made me take a step back and kind of re-think that. . . i love her, much!!!

2.22.o9

*inhale*

Went home on Thursday and e v e r y t h i n g has changed. I didn't think that I had been gone for so long, and I really haven't BUT this is the first time i've really been around everyone, at the same time, and talked to everyone and caught up with everyone, etc. Craziness. 

I heard a lot of crazy things, that I don't agree with at all, but the way the world is today, I can't say anything. I used to be able to explain to people why they should or should not do things, or live certain ways,  etc. based on what is 'wrong' and what is 'right,' but it seems like all that is looong gone and very far out the window. I just hope everyone stays safe. . . that's really all i can say.

On another note, Friday night went from going to the movies, to reuniting with a lot of people that i love. It was fun, & unexpectedly comfortable.

CuzzoDom.NayNay.Fizzle.Ray.Steph.Verii-b.Aaron.Diary.Nfc.BestFriendBum. 

iLyguys, a lot. 

*exhale*

2.14.o9

Drake is making my life better, currently.

2.11.o9

I'm really numb to just about everything. 

I have so much & nothing to say at the same time. . .

2.4.o9

“Time goes by so fast, people go in and out of your life. You must never miss the opportunity to tell these people how much they mean to you.”

It seems like time is going by faster and faster and more and more people are getting sick & dying. What's going on in the world?? I don't understand.


“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

2.3.o9

Why do I feel so alone?
Like everybody passin thru the studio is in character
As if we actin out a movie roll?
Talkin bull shit, as if it was for u to know
& I don't have the ♥ to give these bitch n*ggas the cue to go
So they stick around, kickin out feedback
& I entertain it as if I neeeeed that
I had a talk w. My uncle & he agreed that
My privacy bout the only thing I need back.

Don't ever forget the moment you began to doubt
Transitioning from fitting in to standing out.
But they told me to do me
& don't listen to anybody that knew me
Cuz to know me would mean that there's a new me
& if you think I changed in the slightest, coulda fooled me.

2.2.o9

2.1.o9[pt.2]

she's come such a long way;;

From goodies: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BzsNGilSpuE

to this::

2.1.o9

& i gotta come down to earth, but i don't wanna.